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horrorofahero) wrote2020-12-31 01:49 pm
horrorofahero) wrote2020-12-31 01:49 pm
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The truth is that Ben isn't sure what to make of this place. He's been told it's not heaven. Not hell. Maybe purgatory? All he knows is that he's been getting hungry every day. He gets cold. He needs to sleep. He also keeps running into doors when he forgets he can't phase right through them, so Ben is starting to think that he might just be alive again. How? He doesn't know. Agatha had tried to explain it to him, but on the heels of saving the world and saying goodbye to Vanya and the others vicariously, he's been a little too traumatized to think about too much.
Instead, he focuses on the basics.
Hunger. Exhaustion. Needing a bathroom.
Worse than that, Ben keeps thinking that he sees his siblings. He'll turn a corner and swear he just saw Allison walking the other way. He swore he saw Vanya at the grocery store. And maybe Five had been stalking around angrily with coffee? More than that, he swears he's been seeing Klaus. Him, more than anyone, which kind of makes sense. After all, all those years spent haunting Klaus, maybe in purgatory, the reverse can be true. He'd bunkered down at his new apartment (he has a new apartment with a crappy broken down elevator, but now he actually has to walk up the stairs and wow, he is not in shape), but tonight, he needs to get out of there.
It's so cold, but Ben hasn't found a parka yet, so he's just got his jacket and hoodie when he heads out towards the beach, needing to clear his head and maybe appreciate the stars. Grabbing the collar of his jacket a little tighter, he transitions from boardwalk to beach, sand under his boots as he picks out a figure just in view.
Sighing, Ben realizes that he's being haunted, even here.
If this is purgatory, maybe he does deserve this. Maybe him sticking around and making Klaus think it was on him means that Ben's got to serve out some kind of penance for that. He just wishes that Klaus were actually here and not just another apparition to torment him. "At least I'd get to hug you," he admits out loud, staring forlornly at Klaus' back.
Instead, he focuses on the basics.
Hunger. Exhaustion. Needing a bathroom.
Worse than that, Ben keeps thinking that he sees his siblings. He'll turn a corner and swear he just saw Allison walking the other way. He swore he saw Vanya at the grocery store. And maybe Five had been stalking around angrily with coffee? More than that, he swears he's been seeing Klaus. Him, more than anyone, which kind of makes sense. After all, all those years spent haunting Klaus, maybe in purgatory, the reverse can be true. He'd bunkered down at his new apartment (he has a new apartment with a crappy broken down elevator, but now he actually has to walk up the stairs and wow, he is not in shape), but tonight, he needs to get out of there.
It's so cold, but Ben hasn't found a parka yet, so he's just got his jacket and hoodie when he heads out towards the beach, needing to clear his head and maybe appreciate the stars. Grabbing the collar of his jacket a little tighter, he transitions from boardwalk to beach, sand under his boots as he picks out a figure just in view.
Sighing, Ben realizes that he's being haunted, even here.
If this is purgatory, maybe he does deserve this. Maybe him sticking around and making Klaus think it was on him means that Ben's got to serve out some kind of penance for that. He just wishes that Klaus were actually here and not just another apparition to torment him. "At least I'd get to hug you," he admits out loud, staring forlornly at Klaus' back.
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If any of them are going to upstairs, it's Ben. Klaus won't be, that much he knows. He figures that it's probably pretty hard to get into heaven after all he's done, and that's even without God telling him to his face that she didn't like him.
That one still stings.
But instead of having an existential crisis, he shifts back to the previous topic, the one he said he'd move on from, because the thought that occurs to him demands an answer.
"How long did you have your body back before you jerked off?" Klaus asks knowingly, smirking at Ben over the rim of his coffee. He might not have been in control while Ben possessed him, but he was mostly aware, and he knows that it took all of fifteen seconds for him to almost sneak a peek at Klaus's dick, like he hadn't seen it a million times before.
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Ben lets out an affronted shout when Klaus speaks, and then, he decides, maybe he doesn't love him that much and would it be the worst thing if he stabbed him with his fork? "Dude," he hisses. "I...that's not...!" He really, really doesn't want to answer that question, because he hadn't done it right away, but it definitely happened within the first two days.